A Letter To My Former Body
To My Former Body:
Yes, You. The one who looked a lot better in pictures. The one who had an almost-six pack. You hadn’thad a baby yet so you didn’t have that linea nigra line down your stomach that the doc says might never go away. You fit into those cute red shorts. Your hips were smaller and your butt was too. You didn’t even know what a muffin top was. Yes, former body, you were great.
But I don’t want you back.
I know I’m not fat which I believe is because I exercised and ate healthy during pregnancy, but I still look different. I don’t look how I expected or I wanted. I was having a hard time with that and I know it was ridiculous. I have had a hard time accepting that my body might not look exactly like it once did. Like you did.
Or it might.
That’s the thing, I won’t know.
I might get even stronger than I was and look better than I did. But I don’t know. I don’t know how my body will eventually turn out because part of that is out of my control no matter how much I exercise or eat healthy.
And I still don’t want you back.
I want the body I have now. The one who gave me one of the best gifts I could ask for – a daughter. The one that now makes my husband look at me in a different way and tell me I look the best I ever have. He has a look in his eyes that tells me he means it. He now calls women “warriors” and is amazed at what my body did.
I am too.
I am gaining more confidence than I have ever had. Because I own my body and couldn’t have asked for anything better. No matter what a number on a scale says or what size pants I fit into.
I will continue to live a healthy lifestyle because I want to feel good. I want to be around as long as I can for my family. I want to run races again because it’s what I enjoy. I like feeling strong and I will teach my daughter the right reasons for wanting to maintain a healthy lifestyle.
But it won’t be about the shorts I could fit into. Or the pictures I will look good in. It will be because I want to feel good about myself. And be proud.
I like this new body better. I don’t know how it will look in 10 years. Because pregnancy does a little number on one’s body. And I know I want another baby at some point. But my new body will be healthy and still be a runner. It will still get that look from my husband and it will produce my family.
The best thing I could ever ask for.
So, goodbye former body. You got nothing on me now.
I want to encourage you to follow along in my health journey through what I learn and experience. I hope there is something you can take away from Fit Busy Female that inspires you to start taking control of your health and feeling better every day.