When I quit my job – without a plan
October 7, 2014|Posted in: Career
Planning. I am all about it. I am a planner and I like knowing what’s going to happen. My husband isn’t a planner at all so this actually works for us. I take care of our calendar, the household things we need to plan, events, and I’m happy to.
But what happens when you’re planning goes WAY off course? When the things you always thought would happen a certain way… don’t? And when you suddenly feel lost and question a lot of the things you wanted?
I quit my job.
Without a plan.
It goes without saying that this is very uncharacteristic of me. I did something that just weeks before I wasn’t planning to do.
Let me back up a bit and explain. When I was 6 months pregnant I took on a new job. The opportunity came up and surprised me actually but it was something I really wanted. It was a position I wanted with the type of company I wanted and a salary I was happy with. The catch? (There is always one isn’t there?) The commute. On a really good day my total commute time was 2 hours. On a typical day my total commute time was about 2 ½ – 3 hours. On a really bad day my commute was 4 hours or maybe more.
I underestimated this challenge. I thought I could take it on. And the truth is I might have been able to a little while longer except there was a major life change that happened. My little girl.
I found myself questioning my entire plan. I was always going to be a working mom. I always told people I never wanted to be a stay at home mom. Not that I have anything wrong with that. (Please let me be clear: there is NOTHING wrong with being a stay at home mom and it IS a job and is highly respected.) I just didn’t think it was for me. I am passionate about work and enjoy working so that was always my plan.
But I soon realized that this all just wasn’t going to work. My husband’s schedule is a little crazy with his job. He sometimes gets caught up at work later than usual. He sometimes has to travel and often on very short notice. And now we had someone who depended on us to be there.
Something had to give.
Knowing that it would be almost impossible for us to be on time dropping off and picking up our daughter from daycare, we made a decision that I leave my job. So I called up my then-boss who was very understanding. I told her I needed to resign and that was that.
Then I cried. Really cried.
I have had a job since I was 15. I worked 2 jobs in college while going to school full time. I was working full time when going to grad school and getting my MBA. Here I am now a new mom, with a great education, always had a job, and now – my job is Mom.
While “Mom” is a great job (and the hardest one I’ve had by far), I feel lost. But I also feel a little relieved. As my husband points out, now is the time that I get to figure out what I really WANT to do. Be a stay at home mom? Work on my blog? Change careers? Look for a new opportunity closer to home or with a work from home option?
I now realize that although I don’t have a plan at least I have an opportunity. I can now figure out where I want to go.
I have been receiving some great opportunities through my blog. I get excited at the thought that I might be able to turn my passion into a career somehow with the more contacts I make. I also have some other opportunities in the pipeline for a job if I want to go back to work. I’m figuring it all out.
One of my father’s favorite quotes is “Life is what happens while you’re making plans”. I didn’t plan any of this out but went with my gut (and the amazing support of my husband). I’m not sure where I’ll end up – in a new job, starting my own business, staying home with my daughter. But I’m not going to try and plan it. I’m going to let things happen and trust my gut.
It’s great to have goals to reach for in life. But if you try to plan every move you’re probably going to go off course at some point. I’m excited to see where I go next.
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